Eight

Dear Baby,

It’s April! You know I love this month, namely it’s my month! April macht was er will! I guess this defines my character.

8 months have gone by without you. Do you miss me?

It’s pretty crazy. I mean look at us, life passes by so quickly! How on earth could I imagine how life’s gonna lead us? Or correctly speaking how am I supposed to know how to lead my life?

All I know is to give my best in whatever way I can. I’m really blessed dear. I’m privileged to be granted the freedom and opportunity to seek whatever I’m looking for.

I know how lucky I’m. I thank you for that. Although it hasn’t been easy, but who says it’d be?

I have so many silly plans I want to execute right now! You’d probably think I’m crazy but as usual you’ll end up supporting me and probably join me. And I love you for that!

Kill hesitation baby! Kill insecurity baby!

I sayang you

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Who says

Who says I can’t get stoned
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me in my house alone
Who says I can’t get stoned

Who says I can’t be free
From all of the things that I used to be
Rewrite my history
Who says I can’t be free

Who says I can’t take time
Meet all the boys in the county line
Wait on fate to send a sign
Who says I can’t take time

Who says I can’t get stoned
Plan a trip to India alone
Doesn’t matter if I even go
Who says I can’t get stoned

PS : i love jm

I love You

At times when there are no definite answers to the infinite questions that we are seeking, we tend to give up. We doubt and we break down. We feel aimless and hopeless.

What’s whole sense behind this bloody society?

Why are people so mean to each other?

Money? Power? Things? Money? Power? Status? Things? Power? Things?

The core of life is food, shelter, clothes and wisdom.

But above all the heart of life is love, peace, faith and happiness.

What’s the chase all about?

I got you


A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you
Just get on the phone
I got you
Come and pick you up if I have to
What’s weird about it
Is we’re right at the end
And mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
I’m proud to say
I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye
I’ll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
I got you

Ain’t falling a part, or bitter
Let’s be bigger than that and remember
The cooling outdoor when you’re all alone
We’ll go on surviving
No drama, no need for a show
Just wanna say
I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye
I’ll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
Go ahead and say goodbye (go ahead)
I’ll be alright (say goodbye)
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you

‘Cause this is love and life
And nothing we can both control
And if it don’t feel right
You’re not losing me by letting me know

Go ahead and say goodbye (say goodbye)
I’ll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
Go ahead and say goodbye (go ahead)
I’ll be alright (say goodbye)
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you

A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you

Irish’s Pride

I’m Re-Discovering Ireland.

Ireland’s a country that holds a special place in my heart. It’s dear to me because of my family. It’s dear to because it’s a place so close to home. Oh well, I mean the feel of it literally. Of course geographically it’s nowhere close. Just the presence of my family members is enough, yeah more than enough.

So, this is my fifth time here in Ireland.

Today, I took a different itinerary before I head to my uncle’s place. To be exact I can tell you that I’m sitting in the train in the Connelly Train Station in Dublin writing this.

The real deal is this, I had my dose or shot or whatever you call it of adrenaline this morning. It never occurred to me before. I was gleefully helping my newly incoming Buddy, Yagmur from Turkey to settle her apartment’s paperwork, internet registration and etc. I knew exactly that I needed to catch a train but I was getting real comfortable. I even managed pop into some stores to get some chocolates and candies for my grandmother. Shortly, I boarded to head to Hamburg HBf.

11.15 displayed on screen of my cell phone. I took out my train schedule. Holy Molly! The supposedly train to Lübeck HBf has already left from Hamburg HBf 5 minutes ago. The bloody train to Lübeck Airport operates hourly. When I thought there was no way I’m going to make it He made a way.

All in all, I was the last passenger to check in and I swear for the first time, I felt His presence so strongly. The time series of it, I almost felt as though He was controlling it. Call it luck or whatever but I know it’s more than that. And and and I could proudly proclaim that I didn’t freak out! I was really composed and calm.

Anyways, I took a few hours idling around Dublin City and people-watching.

I wanted to take this opportunity to test the level of friendliness of Irish people.

When I was in the airport, it went completely well.

To spare the details, overall I’d give them an A-.

I also got myself a Claddagh ring this time. Yes yes, it’s a traditional Irish wedding ring. Though I’m not even close to even having a boyfriend, I thought it’d bring me some luck or my heart will be captured somehow. I discovered it and it was introduced to me by Ulana, a half Irish friend of mine and she told me a little story about this ring given to her by her grandmother. It has 3 different ways of wearing and each of them represents the wearer’s romantic availability.

1) If the ring is worn on the right hand with the heart facing outward to show that the wearer is not romantically linked but is looking for love.

2) When turned inwards, it is shown that the wearer is in a relationship, or their heart has been “captured”.

3) When the ring is worn on the left hand with the heart facing outward shows the wearer is engaged; turned inward indicates the wearer is married.

I like the idea of it.

And I wish……

Seven and Three

Dearest my Baby and Big Daddy,

This is a special month! It’s February you see. The number 30 doesn’t appear on our calendar!

February was a good month. I’m doing my 5 weeks internship with the Sustainability and Global Change Department in the Hamburg University this winter break. I really have to admit that it is an eye opener in many aspects. We are in the research unit and my supervisor’s a smarty pants. He explains patiently and gives us some easy tasks to begin with and slowly injecting us with more inputs.

The staffs are all doing their PhD and Post Doctorates. It’s kinda cool to mingle around with a bunch of scientists and you’ll for sure feel tiny and nowhere out there.

I’ve been putting on weight dear!

I officially dislike winter. This year’s winter has been exceptionally cold. Did you send all the cotton candy down? Undoubtedly, it’s definitely a gorgeous view.

But the sad note is that I’m eating like a 15 year-old whom just about to hit his puberty. Please stop this! You know very well that fat girls are not attractive.

I’m very grateful with the people around me. I’m really happy and contented. Thank you, Loves.

PS: I love Spring, Summer, Sun and You!