You see everyone knows that smoking is hazardous. Come on, people know it even before they start smoking. They know that this harmful habit will eventually turn into an addiction. Everyone knows how nicotine spells. They know that somehow one day they will have to struggle to quit smoking. They know that someday they will have to regret after all those years of fagging; their health will deteriorate to the extent that they’ll have to fork out most of their bloody hard earn money to feed themselves with more chemical to support their living for something that they’ve proudly earned from – all in the name of being THE BIG FAGGER.

So yeah, well done mate! Be it cigarettes, joints, or whatever you want to call them.

So why do people even start smoking?

Cause of the oral pleasure of it?

For the sake of appealing cool and accepted?

Cause you want to display the freedom in our society?

You can’t think without a puff?

Oh, some say it is a reward. A reward that is always loyal and available after a hard piece of work or a last page of a report. So I’ll deserve a little fun. I’ll have a cigarette. You get a pat on your back and heard yourself uttering “Well done mate!” It is a pure enjoyment and 100% satisfaction.

If you keep giving yourself 100 millions of reasons why you should smoke, like after all life’s short; You know seize the day, forget about tomorrow and enjoy today. Then you are just another short-sighted-foolish-selfish-dim-witted arse who enjoys temporary thrill.

Okay, so you are a smoker. And the thought of quitting actually pops up after you finally realize it is burning a big hole in your pocket. BUT you can’t. Cause every time you try, you end up firing it back. You fail. You reckon your own weakness. You are a failure. So in order not to repeat the same bloody blunder, you quit quitting smoking. You give up trying.

Call me ignorant. And I know I’m living in my very own imaginary world.

Yeah, faggers argue that we non-smokers don’t understand why someone who wants to stop hasn’t done so and continues to spend considerable amounts of money on something they actually want to get rid of. Ask the drug addicts on the street? They just can’t, there’s NO BLOODY WAY!

Let me tell you a secret my dear ones.

There’s a way! Most people underestimate their will power. How on earth you think, those athletics made their world records and Neil Armstrong landed on the moon 40 years ago? And the best you could make out of yourself is a NO. If you can believe that you want to stop and can stop, YOU CAN! It is as easy as this. You need to be ready in order to win the war against yourself. And you have to believe you can win it. The reasons and rewards of not smoking are beyond what you can ever think of.

And since today is a World No Tobacco Day, it adds up to another reason to your list.

Make believe.

PS : we are very proud of you uncle willy, mom told me the great news today!

Sweet Disposition

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you’re gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

These lines just made my day.

Sometimes, you get this tickling feeling in your heart as listen to some songs which actually speak and stand for you. Or even bring you back down the memory lane or special events. As I was digging my old playlist while ago, I found this jewel. Alanis is amazing. In fact, I’m thinking of naming my daughter Alanis in the future.

Her hippie-influenced music reminds me totally of this colourful and laidback vibe of the rainbow family.

A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.

Have a good day and a lovely weekend people!

collide and combine

Today was rough and at the same time uplifting. I know this sounds crazy but it happened.

I felt as though I was about to collide with a gigantic fiery ball and nearly explode into million pieces. I’m thinking about you a lot recently, dear. The images of you somehow flicker every now and then – you and the hospital, Uncle George and Aunt Ming, your room and your scent and every other occurrence which took place last year.

You are dearly missed dear.

On the other note, I went for a chicken run today. I reckoned that my knee’s growing stronger day by day. Did you somehow cast a spell on it? I could run! And it was a pure bliss. I guess, you showed up and assured me that everything’s going to be fine. I heard you, baby.

Now hear me out, I’m OKAY! I deserve to be and I want to be.

The irony amazed me.

Auch wenn du jetzt bitterlich weinst
Bitte gib nicht auf
Auch wenn du grad das Leben verneinst
Bitte gib nicht auf
Auch wenn du dir verstorben scheinst
Bitte gib nicht auf
Auch wenn alles verdorben scheint
Gib nicht auf

Xavier Naidoo – Alles kann besser werden

PS: the two songs from Yael were played randomly as I was heading back home from jogging today. Xavier’s song popped out coincidentally from mtv as i was surfing the channels. yeah, my housemate just left me a couple of candies on my doorstep as food for thought. how it wrapped up my day. what more can i ask?

one shot

You see, it’s really hard to make everyone happy. Of course when people around me are happy, I feel tenfold happier than them. That’s the ultimate reason I want to please everyone, well I least I’m constantly trying or learning to. Naturally, things don’t work that way. The more you try, sometimes, the harder it hits you. In fact, you can’t just please everyone.

All of us have our own set of rules and principles that we tend to follow. We lean on these little perfect imaginary systems we have in mind that reflect each and every one of our characters and personalities. Needless to say, that makes up our fair share of diversity in mankind. Because of our ability to adapt and rationalize enable us to find our feet in all situations and with all walks of life.

It’s a cycle that never stops. We get carried away with the people we feel most comfortable with. They build us up encouragingly and leave traces that will eventually open doors of opportunities that we’d probably not have done it by ourselves. I’m saying simple great souls who have helped an old granny crossing the street or even a random conservation with a stranger who has touched you with his or her warm smile and voice. Someone who you think you matters to them, someone who will try unfailingly to put a smile on your face, someone whose action speaks louder than words, someone who accepts you the way you are and who you are.

I have to admit that I can do better than this.

Granted, the fear of smelling my very own vulnerability has not developed itself.

I want so badly you to know!

There are three things will last forever – faith, hope and love – and the greatest of these is LOVE.

1 Corinthians 13:13